Deathbed

 I decided to put this on here because I've been playing it a whole lot on the piano lately. It's such a beautiful song of forgiveness and redemption. A song of how, no matter how much of a train wreck you are, God never gives up on you. The lyrics to this are so very well written. I give two huge thumbs up to Matt Thiessen
 for writing such a fantastic song. Every time I here it, I'm filled with gratefulness and, humility. I'm so insignificant yet the God of the universe still loves me. Sorry it's so dang long, it's seriously like, 11 minutes on the CD. lol :) But it's just so epic it doesn't even seem that long when you're listening to it. Anyway, I encourage you to look it up on youtube or something, or better yet, just buy the CD. It's Deathbed by Relient K, and the CD that it's on is called "5 Score and Seven Years Ago."

 I can smell the death on the sheets, covering me, I can't believe this is the end.

But this is my deathbed, I lie here alone.
If I close my eyes tonight, I know I'll be home.

The year was nineteen forty one,
I was eight years old and far far too young.
To know that the stories, of battles and glory,
Was a tale a kind mother, made up for her son.
You see, dad was a traveling preacher,
Teaching the words of the Teacher.
My mother left mourning went off to the war,
And died there with honor, somewhere on a beach there.
But he left once to never return, which taught me that I should unlearn,
Whatever I thought, a father should be.
I abandoned that thought like he abandoned me.

By forty seven I was fourteen.
I'd acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine.
I smoked until I threw up, yet I still lit 'em up for thirty more years,
Like a machine.

So right there you have it, that one filthy habit,
Is what got me where I am today.

I can smell the death on the sheets, covering me,
I can't believe this is the end.
I can hear those sad memories, still haunting me.
So many things, I'd do again.

But this is my deathbed, I lie here alone.
If I close my eyes tonight, I know I'll be home.

I got married on my twenty first, eight months before my wife would give birth.
It's easier to be sure you love someone, when her father inquires with the barrel of a gun.
The union was far from harmonious, no two people could have been more alone than us.
The years would go by and she'd love someone else,
And I realized I hadn't been loved yet myself.

From there it's your typical spiel,
Yeah if life was a highway I was drunk at the wheel.
I was seeing the loose ends, all fall apart.
Yeah I swear I was destined to fail, and fail from the start.

I bowled about six times a week, the bottle of Beam kept the memories from me.
Our marriage had take a seven-ten split,
Along with my pride the ex-wife took the kids.

I can smell the death on the sheets, covering me, I can't believe this is the end.
I can hear those sad memories, still haunting me.
So many things I'd do again.

But this is my deathbed, I lie here alone,
If I close my eyes tonight, I know I'll be home.

I was so scared of Jesus but He sought me out, like the cancer in my lungs is killing me now.
And I've given up hope on the days I have left, but I cling to the hope of my life in the next.
Then Jesus showed up said "Before we go, I thought that we might reminisce.
See one night in your life, when you turned out the light,
You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness"

You cried wolf, the tears they soaked your fur,  the blood dripped from your fangs.
You said, "What have I done?"
You loved that lamb with every sinful bone, and there you wept alone,
Your heart was so contrite.

You said, "Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes, sanctify this withered heart of mine.
Stay with me until my life is through, and on that day please take me home with you."

I can smell the death on the sheets, covering me, I can't believe this is the end.
I can hear You whisper to me, "It's time to leave, you'll never be lonely again."

But this was my deathbed, I died there alone.
When I closed my eyes tonight, You carried me home.

"I am the Way, follow Me and take My hand.
And I am the Truth, embrace Me and you'll understand.
And I am the Life, and through Me you'll live again.
For I am Love,
I am Love,
I, I am Love."